different

so as i am about to head off to college (4 days), everyone keeps asking me the same question: are you excited? and i don't know quite how to respond. i am excited, but not as excited as i thought that i would be. i have been wanting to move out and experience living on my own for some time now. and i'm still looking forward to that, but not with the urgency that i used to feel. and i am really excited to meet new people. but i'm dreading having to say good bye to the people that i already know. i have been able to start (or deepen) so many relationships with people over the last year or two, and i am going to desperately miss seeing them regularly. i feel like that one feeling is holding me back from feeling the way i thought that i would right now. so i don't really know the point of this post. i guess i was just bored.