Tuesday, August 19, 2008

i'm here!

so college is not at all like i expected. and yet kind of what i expected. but then i didn't know really what to expect. i have a giant field right across from my dorm that i love more that i can describe. it's nice to go sit under a tree and read, or play frisbee with people that i don't know (by the way, that whole college kids play frisbee thing is actually true) or just hang out with friends. it's also nice that i have some friends from high school that i have been hanging out with a lot. but we all have meet a few new people that we get along really well with who spend a lot of time with us. its kind of funny, because we have a group forming. and since i am in a suit, and we have a living room, people come hang out in our room a lot. it's cool. i also really like the teachers that i have had so far (i meet two more today). so i think that this year is going to be good, but hard. i know that it least a few of my classes are going to be a lot of work. 

i also think that i am really going to like the wesley foundation (one of the christian ministries). i went to the freshmen night, and i really liked it. everyone seemed sincere and excited that we were there. the upper class-men  seemed to be almost like a family. the atmosphere in general reminded me of altaer. 

another cool thing that i got to do is have worship on a field in north campus. it wasn't hosted by any one group, which was cool. it was just the kind of thing that you show up and leave when you want. you could sit, stand, dance, sing, talk, or basically do whatever. it was a way of starting out the year in fellowship and praise to God. it was also a time for us to be sent into the campus and city. there is a verse in romans that says you have to be sent, and that's what it felt like to me. it was also really cool just to sit in the grass, under the sky, and worship God. it was beautiful to hear the voices. there were no microphones or speakers. just some guitars, a drum, and about 200 voices. 

something hit me during one of the songs. before it, i was a little frustrated with myself because i felt distracted and like i wasn't getting anything out of worship. but as we repeated the line. "i trust in You," i just started crying. but i was at peace. i just kind of sat there and let the tears fall. because i knew. i knew in that moment that this year is going to be hard. and i knew that i was going to have a lot of thing stripped away from me. but like He has been teaching me for the past 6 months, He will be faithful. so even though it is my automatic reaction to start thinking that i am scared and i don't want to go trough this season, that's a lie. i'm not afraid. i'm at peace. if anything, i'm excited. because i think that i'm about to learn a lot. i also know that if i have nothing else, i will have God. He has promised to keep me, and i trust in Him. 

and now i have to go to class.   

2 comments:

andy brophy said...

now you know what i am good at frisbee...i was one of those guys that you will see out on the field way more than anywhere else

Erin Randalow said...

Oh, Kate...I love you

and your spirit and I'm excited too to see the way God is going to shape you

I miss constantly having you in my life ...but I know that God has some really huge things in store for you :)